6.1 This week has been a test

The earlier part of this week was really difficult and exhausting to me, balancing work and school felt untenable, I was so tired, I was so heavy, my therapy felt like a slog, I felt dull, uneasy, incompetent, uncertain, I skipped a class because I was so dull and tired and uneasy, I didn’t lie about it, but then the next day, in spite of myself, I recovered somewhat, even after a long day of meetings, of being somewhat invisible, I felt my strength returning, and then today was unexpectedly good, I felt a smile throughout, even as I had my missteps and annoyances, and I left feeling lighter, and now tomorrow is Friday! and I am hopeful again, and I am inspired by a variety of unexpected sources (the sorry state of the world, Sister Corita Kent, Eames, Dolor y Gloria trailer, plants, music, and the arrival of spring).

Corita Kent, hope, 1978, silkscreen on paper, 30 x 30 cm, courtesy the Corita Art Center, Immaculate Heart Community, Los Angeles