This is Louise!

Episode Thirty-Seven
11.16.2019


Episode Thirty-Six
11.09.2019


Episode Thirty-Five
11.01.2019

35.1 FOR THE MONTH OF NOVEMBER I’M GOING TO TRY TO USE MY BODY TO MAKE MY DECISIONS
35.2 IF WE ARE WILLING TO ACCEPT THAT THERE ARE DIFFERENT WAYS OF LEARNING THEN WE MUST ALSO ACCEPT THAT THERE ARE DIFFERENT WAYS OF KNOWING

Episode Thirty-Four — Listen
10.25.2019

34.1 Georgia supposedly said “I've been absolutely terrified every moment of my life - and I've never let it keep me from doing a single thing I wanted to do” & I believe her & aspire to be like her <3


Episode Thirty-Three — Listen
10.18.2019

Episode Thirty-Two — Listen
10.11.2019

Episode Thirty-One — Listen
10.04.2019

Episode Thirteen — Listen
09.27.2019
This week’s episode is a rebroadcast.

Episode Thirty — Listen
09.20.2019

30.1 So much big change I’m not concentrating

Episode Twenty-Nine — Listen
09.13.2019

Episode Twenty-Eight — Listen
09.06.2019

Episode Twenty-Seven — Listen
08.30.2019

27.1 I’m going to make a change before this year ends. 

Episode Twenty-Six — Listen
08.23.2019

26.1 Don’t get ahead of yourself, girl

Episode Twenty-Five — Listen
08.16.2019

25.1 Erv rules

Episode Eighteen — Listen
08.09.2019
This week’s episode is a rebroadcast.

18.3 1,000 natural shocks
18.4 Something slightly off

Episode Twenty-Four — Listen
08.02.2019

24.1 In Chicago this week, I’m lucky, I’m confused

Episode Twenty-Three — Listen
07.26.2019

23.1 Slapstick ending to therapy today, I slipped down her stairs in my footie socks, then I knocked down her Buddhist hanging thing, then we both kept apologizing to each other and she told me not to pick it up and I kept apologizing as the door closed between us
23.2 From Emergent Strategy (I thought this was beautiful)

Episode Twenty-Two — Listen
07.19.2019

22.1 One realization

Episode Twenty-One — Listen
07.12.2019

21.1 Things she has taught me so far


Episode Twenty — Listen
07.05.2019

20.1 Read this quote by Howard Thurman
20.2 Day off
20.3 Today I feel sad and I can’t quite get to the bottom of it

Episode Nineteen — Listen
06.28.2019

19.1 The week of bad timing

Episode Eighteen — Listen
06.21.2019

18.1 “a conversation is only as good as the questions it entertains”
18.2 We saw it clearly tonight!


Episode Seventeen — Listen
06.14.2019

17.1 The Parker Palmer lines I think about often and thought about again today, which energized and soothed me in a moment that I needed it
17.2 Very clear, all of a sudden
17.3 Yeah that about sums it up

Episode Ten — Listen
06.07.2019
This week’s episode is a rebroadcast.

10.2 Our home is like a hug and I will protect it
10.3 angel Kyodo Williams’s working definition of love

Episode Sixteen — Listen
05.31.2019

16.1 She said that maybe I could be admirable without being obnoxious, that she thought I was on my way

16.2 Honest account of the day (dynamic synopsis)

16.3 “Everything tastes the same.”

Episode Fifteen — Listen
05.24.2019


15.1 Intentions for my 36th year on earth

15.2 From Becoming More Fully Human, an interview with Virginia Satir on Thinking Allowed with Dr. Jeffery Mishlove, 1998

15.3 Daughter of my late employer


Episode Fourteen — Listen
05.17.2019

14.1 I think I’m learning to relax?

Episode Thirteen — Listen
05.10.2019

13.1 Today I allowed myself to express my tenderness to others and you know what? it made everything better, more manageable, and more full of love

Episode Twelve — Listen
05.03.2019

12.1 Thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you

12.2 A Rilke poem to hold in your heart

12.3 William Butler Yeats said



Episode Eleven — Listen
04.26.2019

11.1 You should know first that I feel better now
11.2 I don’t care if you’re just buttering my bread, I’ll take it because it feels great to take it


Episode Ten — Listen
04.19.2019

10.1 Excerpt from Psychiatry and the Sacred by Jacob Needleman

Episode Nine — Listen
04.12.2019

9.1 I have felt repellent this week, I think I was truly repelling people, except not today, so maybe it’s lifting
9.2 Laughter is a lubricant

Episode Eight — Listen
04.05.2019

8.1 Rewatching The Door in the Floor (grief/eroticism/Kim Basinger/New England/salt)
8.2 He teared up and then I teared up


Episode Seven — Listen
03.30.2019

7.1 A good list from Core Competencies of Relational Psychoanalysis (Roy E. Barsness, editor)
7.2 Erving Polster videos tonight!
7.3 What ifs
7.4 Regarding change

Episode Six — Listen
03.23.2019

6.1 This week has been a test
6.2 An honest question

Episode Five — Listen
03.16.2019

5.1 Unscheduled time
5.2 Cradled by the day
5.3 I made an orange bundt cake today (she bakes now)
5.4 An excerpt from Trauma and Memory by Peter Levine
5.5 Another excerpt from Trauma and Memory by Peter Levine

Episode Four — Listen
03.09.2019

4.1 Is this good?
4.2 “Severe” look
4.3 The 4th floor
4.4 Rhan can’t stop thinking about Blade
Runner
4.5 Don’t look now 7.23.19

Mark



5.5 Another excerpt from Trauma and Memory by Peter Levine


Let us first consider an example of a procedural memory as an acquired motor skill. Learning to ride a bicycle may seem like a formidable, if not terrifying, task, yet with the gentle support of a parent or older sibling, we master the quixotic forces of gravity, velocity, and momentum. We do this procedurally, without any explicit knowledge of the physics or math involved. We learn to master these forces largely by trial and error; the requisite learning curve is, of necessity, quite steep. The adage that one never forgets how to ride a bike rings true for most procedural memories, for better or for worse. So if during one of our early bicycling efforts we have the misfortune of hitting loose gravel and taking a nasty spill, the acquisition of adaptive and requisite balanced movements and body postures can be interfered with. Then when we finally do ride, it may be with a hesitancy leading to instability, or, alternatively, with daredevil abandon and “counter phobia.” What should have evolved into a nuanced learned motor skill is overridden and becomes instead a habitual, survival-based reactive pattern of bracing and contracting, or of overcompensating with counter-phobic risk taking; both are less-than-optimal outcomes and unfortunate examples of the durability of a procedural memory. Indeed, persistent maladaptive procedural and emotional memories form the core mechanism that underlies all traumas, as well as many problematic social and relationship issues. (p. 38)
Mark