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This week’s Louise is Kristen Scott Thomas’s wonderful Fleabag cameo <3

Episode Fifteen

15.1 Intentions for my 36th year on earth

15.2 From Becoming More Fully Human, an interview with Virginia Satir on Thinking Allowed with Dr. Jeffery Mishlove, 1998

Episode Fourteen — Listen

14.1 I think I’m learning to relax?

Episode Thirteen — Listen

13.1 Today I allowed myself to express my tenderness to others and you know what? it made everything better, more manageable, and more full of love

Episode Twelve — Listen

12.1 Thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you

12.2 A Rilke poem to hold in your heart

12.3 William Butler Yeats said

Episode Eleven — Listen

11.1 You should know first that I feel better now
11.2 I don’t care if you’re just buttering my bread, I’ll take it because it feels great to take it

Episode Ten — Listen

10.1 Excerpt from Psychiatry and the Sacred by Jacob Needleman

Episode Nine — Listen

9.1 I have felt repellent this week, I think I was truly repelling people, except not today, so maybe it’s lifting
9.2 Laughter is a lubricant

Episode Eight — Listen

8.1 Rewatching The Door in the Floor (grief/eroticism/Kim Basinger/New England/salt)
8.2 He teared up and then I teared up

Episode Seven — Listen

7.1 A good list from Core Competencies of Relational Psychoanalysis (Roy E. Barsness, editor)
7.2 Erving Polster videos tonight!
7.3 What ifs
7.4 Regarding change

Episode Six — Listen

6.1 This week has been a test
6.2 An honest question

Episode Five — Listen

5.1 Unscheduled time
5.2 Cradled by the day
5.3 I made an orange bundt cake today (she bakes now)
5.4 An excerpt from Trauma and Memory by Peter Levine
5.5 Another excerpt from Trauma and Memory by Peter Levine

Episode Four — Listen

4.1 Is this good?
4.2 “Severe” look
4.3 The 4th floor
4.4 Rhan can’t stop thinking about Blade
4.5 I think I might be a Buddhist now?


5.5 Another excerpt from Trauma and Memory by Peter Levine

Let us first consider an example of a procedural memory as an acquired motor skill. Learning to ride a bicycle may seem like a formidable, if not terrifying, task, yet with the gentle support of a parent or older sibling, we master the quixotic forces of gravity, velocity, and momentum. We do this procedurally, without any explicit knowledge of the physics or math involved. We learn to master these forces largely by trial and error; the requisite learning curve is, of necessity, quite steep. The adage that one never forgets how to ride a bike rings true for most procedural memories, for better or for worse. So if during one of our early bicycling efforts we have the misfortune of hitting loose gravel and taking a nasty spill, the acquisition of adaptive and requisite balanced movements and body postures can be interfered with. Then when we finally do ride, it may be with a hesitancy leading to instability, or, alternatively, with daredevil abandon and “counter phobia.” What should have evolved into a nuanced learned motor skill is overridden and becomes instead a habitual, survival-based reactive pattern of bracing and contracting, or of overcompensating with counter-phobic risk taking; both are less-than-optimal outcomes and unfortunate examples of the durability of a procedural memory. Indeed, persistent maladaptive procedural and emotional memories form the core mechanism that underlies all traumas, as well as many problematic social and relationship issues. (p. 38)